You know I'm a dreamer......But my heart's of gold......I had to run away high.....So I wouldn't come home low

Just when things went right,Doesn't mean they were always wrong,Just take this song and you'll never feel Left all alone..... Read a friends post and it was like I was back in time with the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE! The most horrible EX of all was someone I knew since I was in the first grade. he was cute....funny.....nice.....and he was the biggest crush I had all through elementary,junior high and high school. I dated him off and on......but this guy was a real PIG always wanting to get it the pants of anyone he could. He wasn't nice anymore. So why after my divorce..........after all those years had passed did I reconnect and get involved with him. ITS CALLED REBOUND! I was to afraid to be alone. I felt better in bad company than alone with no company. Needless to say I wasted MANY years with a guy who was always unemployed, drank all day and night, and was just plain LAZY! The best thing the bastard did was give me my daughter. He wasn't really excited about her either. Still isn't. He use to force himself on me, call me all kinds of nasty names, steal money from my purse.The guy eventually beat the shit out of me, and went to prison. He then begged me to drop charges.........pleeeeeeze! I left the bastard. Basically I wasted like 6 years in an abusive relationship.......that made so much stronger. He remains a LOSER......lives with his mommy, is unemployed........has no ambition........doesn't call his daughter (unless its like Christmas or her Birthday) and he usually calls all intoxicated. NOW hes also FAT and UGLY and smells of stale beer cigarettes and ass. Dirty ass. BUT! I thank him..........because I appreciate life today. My daughter has a DAD who has raised her since she was 3. Fathers are a dime a dozen. But an AWESOME DAD......the man that holds you when you cry for your father who promised to come for you and didn't, the man that teaches you to potty in the toilet, the man that scolds you, the man that takes you to school early in the morning, the man that teaches you about G_D and Torah.....and the man that is there for all your plays and performances...very rare and hard to find. My heart's like an open book..........For the whole wide world to read.......