You change your mind Like a girl changes clothes. Yeah, you, PMS Like a bitch I would know And you over think Always speak Critically...I should know that you're no good for me

I know a certain someone who is ALWAYS sick. Either its a cold, its a headache, stomach ache, back ache, depression, can't sleep or just plain fucking grumpiness!!! I know it has to do with the fact that he doesn't have or really desire SEX (LIKE CLOSE TO 3 YEARS WITHOUT..YIKES!!) . I being a little on the Dr. Ruth side have always argued that SEX is the cure for many ailments. It's been studied that people who have sex more often have higher levels of IgA (Immune system Defense Army). People have the misunderstanding that sex can lead to a heart attack YES, if you're not supposed to have sex because your heart isn't healthy enough) When in fact, sex twice a week for men can help reduce the risk of having a heart attack, and for women it can help increase estrogen which also helps fighting off heart attacks. CUMMING hard or just cumming is the best stress reliever...the more we stress...(this guy is REALLY STRESSED (like 24/7)) the lower your libido(ooooo that's why he doesn't wanna EVER do it!!) if you're cumming your breathing more calmly. So cum as often as possible!! Plus having that amazing orgasm can lower your blood pressure.

Having sex often is that natural morphine...a great fuck is the cure for reducing pain in the back,legs, menstrual cramps, arthritis and headaches.(HOLY SHIT!!! This guy is totally missing out on the free natural Morphine..IDIOT!) Well, maybe I should be a little more positive. Research have said men who ejaculate either  during sex or masturbation at least 21 times a month lower the chances of getting prostate cancer.      ( Who am I kidding...this guy cant get it up never the less rub one out) Can't sleep you say? You're acting like a little bitch because you're moody you say?? You feel depressed and good for nothing?? All Fuck My Life? Guess what the natural cure is dumb ass?? YEP....SEX! Sex triggers your body to produce feel good chemicals that help reduce stress, chemicals that induce a relaxation hormone that helps you sleep. And with good sleep comes less moodiness. The best little bonuses to having sex on a regular is anti-aging and can keep away tooth decay...WOW! While having sex beta endorphins are released which are the chemicals that  helps the skins collagen production. They say an apple a day keeps the doctor away. Nope kissing and having oral sex helps keep the dentist away. While kissing or going down we produce more saliva which helps to prevent the build up of food, plaque and acid which lead to tooth decay. So..Eat out more often (but also PLEASE brush your teeth, use mouthwash and floss..if your mouth stinks your ass probably does too..no one wants to go down on that).

Lastly the coolest reasons sex is a benefit to your regular list of activities is that it helps cure hangovers and writers block. Now, sex cannot undo the damages alcohol has done to your body or liver..BUT, it can get rid of that nasty hangover. During sex those endorphins and oxytocin are released which help improve your mood and muscle movements. Writers block...I had struggled with that one for about 2 years. Sex was definitely the cure. An amazing lay can get the creative juices(and other types of juices flowing)  thus leading to getting rid of that nasty writes block, or artistic block

We use to be like twins, so in sync the same energy Now a dead battery. Use to laugh about nothing. Now you're plain boring. I should know that you're not going to change.

Every time I think of you I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue It's no problem of mine But it's a problem I find Living a life that I can't leave behind But there's no sense in telling me The wisdom of the fool won't set you free But that's the way that it goes And it's what nobody knows Well every day my confusion grows........

Life is so super confusing. Its hard to make everyone happy..including myself. Yesterday I was a wife, a mom, a friend, an artist, a daughter, a survivor. BUT I am unhappy wife. Loathed , disrespected,  and I have slept on the sofa for what seems like most of my 10 year marriage. I am a mom still..I could definitely be a much better one..more time more patience and just more of me for them in general. I am still a friend...but with me working all the time..or some "event" lately prevents me from being the attentive friend I was in the past. I am still an artist..THAT I can say... I have actually grown and have improved in. I am blessed to still have my parents here with me..but AGAIN..I'm always doing SOMETHING that prevents me from spending more time with my folks. I am STILL a survivor..MORE so than EVER. I am leaving my NON EXISTENCE as some strangers "wife". The man is a great father, he saved me when I needed it 10 years ago...He kept me from falling when I was at my weakest point in life. But that ended a year after I met him. I knew it, and he knew it. We are blessed to have beautiful children together, and blessed that we are parents that can co-parent together. BUT..no love exists, it hasn't for years.We have been miserable for years trying to make it "work". In life we are always trying to make it work. It takes a much stronger person to realize when something is NEVER going to work. Counseling, time, patience..those have all been tried and exhausted. Its time for me to be happy, a mom,a friend, an artist a daughter and continue to be a survivor. I'm leaving a life that I couldn't leave behind.